Open Mic: How can I say this

Well how can I say this..when u look piss..and I'm holding back on my last diss..
I need a progress climbing on the ladders that are known to have fallen
How can I say this right now.it's calling..
And how can I say this..stress this..I could've been balling..how can I express this..active Ness got me addicted to all the filth bizz I ain't a man less when I say this..
How can I say this..u lied about your sweetNess and turned into bad news ..let me say this too much problems..so I can care less..care more a bout a strip tease. ..than taking steps to be one day deceased..becus I'm just a tamed beast with all arrows pointing to me saying u can blame me..      I can say this can u really blame me...it's plain to see..physically.and emotionally on a rally..
How can I say this...I'm beginning to see the changes in me..overall going back to reality if it don't pull through for me..this trap my strap all kinds of crap...stay sharp all I can say... or for watver way ud like to be to me ill accept it let no one intercept. So how can I say this...spit on this I'm taking off..