Just an insight of how crazy and back-and-forth the mind gets during a depressive period.
It's dark in here, and every part of fear Rears whenever a spark appears, My heart is seared, Dunno what lies beneath the charred veneer, Scars and tears, I wish that I could get this fuckin' car in gear But it was me that parked it here...
Fuck this predictable 'perfect' pattern The scenic route circling Saturn The meaningless hurt we gather We AIN'T always 'learning' after We ain't always gaining shit From the pain when it's raining fists On your brain like it's training You for the day that you 'made it, kid' But listen... I think my mind is tricking me, yeah, An imaginary black dog has bitten me 'Sic em' He's attacking me, I'm faced with the pain of inaction So I'm raking impatiently through my brain for distractions Frantically pacing but I can't gain any traction We draw what we feel, it's a fatal attraction
Logically I know it's just my mind that is stopping me Cause it's all about what we see and I know that I've got the key But sometimes, yeah, it's like I've had a lobotomy And I'm blind to the light from all this shit that's on top of me The thought's always creepin' in, futility's killing me But I'll never let it beat me if I have the ability Sick of yearning for days, I should be learning to play This game, and kill the black dog instead of turning away
But when he's burning again, you're fuckin' trying to match him No emotional attachment to words that you scratched When you were feeling more active Like 'as soon as the sadness hits I'll put em to practice And he should be dispatched' Shit...
The battle is ever present, your attitude's The only thing that makes a fucking difference when the black dog is mad at you, So do what you have to do, as long as you battle through, Bask in the wins, so the losses won't rattle you, Don't bottle it up, shit, be pissed at the universe, Get it out your fucking system if it ever leaves you immersed, Never make an excuse to bitch and always be like that Just write a fuckin' verse about it, get up and fight back
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