Open Mic: Failure (Collab)

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    Posted: 17 April 2005 at 9:34am

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Feelin excess hate growin within as I become one wit confusion,
revealin a stronger mind state, one that wont be concealed by illusions,
before my life transcends ill make a certain bitch aware im no longer her pawn,
this once useless pawn has been pushed to the edge, transform as I’m reborn,
 re-spawn wit the growing hatred that she helped water with my own tears,
I think back on the 4 yrs an its hidden fears-n-pain I had tried to persevere,
the times she tricked me into her arms until satisfied before pushin me away,
felt like she was holdin treats beyond my reach to keep me at bay to obey,
bein led by her grasp round my throat as my future is bein molded to suit her,
agony of my past’s failure that she summons to knee the crutch of my future,
the instant ringside blur of my soul clinging the ropes tryin to escape the 1-2-3, 
her constant reminder that I’ve failed the life she had mapped out for me,
tire of steppin gently round her trip wires of lies, I desire 2 retire from this liar,
this duel of who I failed most is jus addin more shotgun shells into my fire,
I place a spur on my pain as I stir this pot of emotions until a reaction occurs,
”I’ve let my self down” I realize its my life an its not spoce 2 be bout her,
ima spear razors down her throat so that her “sorry” actually sound sincere,
 

Anubis
you watched as i stood tall, continued blindly through it all
waiting for the moment of the fall, I can still hear you call
the abusive comments the instant of the acknowledgement
you scream repent as you berate me with your obvious intent
I am forced to return fire animated with this single desire
Bleed you self obsessed bitch, say it again call me a liar
You weren’t right, but still caused me to falter
You caused this blight, enabled my course to alter
This can’t be right a chance to rebuild but it is slight
I fought for salvation but just fed your increasing delight

I Tried to restore myself…
I failed
I Tried Continuation…
I Failed

That time has come around again, failure on the cards again
I feel the strain as this familiar feeling wracks my brain
I am unable to ascertain the degree of the imminent pain
The last occurrence still does remain, but still another scar to gain
Infused with the inability to repent my ways, to let the feeling drop
Unable to learn from past mistakes, to listen to the word stop
I don’t see an end to this existence of seeing your bliss
A failure on my part, I see your delight as you reminisce
I want to see this end but that will drag me down to your level
I heard you scream for me go to hell, but I’ve already seen the devil

I Tried to forget…
I Failed
I Tried to suppress…
I Failed

I feed my mind with visions, visions of enacted decisions
Feeling the divisions, recalling the inquisitions
I could never understand your mind, are there others of your kind?
Whenever it was u I would find I was always left feeling blind
Unable to continue under your steely gaze and inability to praise
even the smallest thing on the best days, this set my mind ablaze
The steps of revenge the movement to the final challenge
I can see the word exchange, I can feel my mind derange
The pain finally brought back to you, a pain well overdue
After I see this through, I will finally be able to start anew

I Tried to forgive…
I Failed
I Tried to Stop Myself…
I Failed

<Screaming>
I FAILED

apologies for the box i have no fucking idea where it came from....



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maaaaaaaaaaan, sickness!
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Post Options Post Options   Likes (0) Likes(0)   Quote S double C Quote  Post ReplyReply Direct Link To This Post Posted: 19 April 2005 at 7:54am
i think the box kicks ass...so no apology from me about the box...
Anywho Anubis ya newb, ya didnt past all me verse...

end should be:
    
spear razors down her throat so that her “sorrys” actually sound sincere,
    I transfer these strings of control an secure them around their puppeteer,

Anubis i already told ya wat i thought of ya verse on msn...the way u explain the emotions involved with ur verse is really well done...props on that

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hit the floor,an duck for cover,my spits bring gore,u wont recover,
from my raw spit,ur bone an flesh,im young an fit,well hung an feelin fresh,
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wow this is an unexpected but real hot colla props to you both nice deep shit


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thanx 4 the feed bak

n S u no my comments so i wont waiste the ppls time

any more feedbak is more than welcome
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