it’s too common a phrase to govern my day 

but it’s just to say that I’m solemn at bay

and it’s pouring some rain, 
acetic laden - your dominant state's

my prominent play – ‘I never pulled through’

- Souffleur on Solomon’s grave. 

our punishment made in the modest of ways: 

child with spectacles meets its sovereign mate

you fostered me – not in a metaphorical way

but literally. you lifted me on my chimerical climb

inner misfit sinks in liquids at an ‘immeasurable’ price 

everything can be valued at dice so that’s an intentional lie

mistaking somersaults for rolls on my inevident thrive 

‘poured one out for you’ just the other day

Eight-year old liquid got that proper taste

the one you gifted me for my wondrous trait

remember me in a bit of a raucous rage? 

leathered leads for a trip to my tarnished trace 

severed these through a sip from that Bacardi sway. 

we are both morally morbid yet oxymoronic on calling

one of us is prone to their most toxic of thoughts and 

as the golden-glee in mornings turns to an atomic process 

and an oneiric blur is my coveting orbit.

‘I never used you’. I been told you inhabited me, 
my mind, every fucking.. *insertable scene* 

my Gemini, the ever-core of an insatiable seed 

Sister to Lilith – they call you a manic in realm

‘schizoaffective’ – that’s how they unravelled my dream 

I can feel the leather straps again.. the sedative stre-

at the moment. . it could be the alcohol talking lol . .but. . 

i enjoyed this from top to bottom and will probably read it at least 2 or 3 more times before i log off tonight

@Chain

And here I was hoping my approach was a bit more direct this time, haha...

I mean, you actually got it right. It's about a person talking to the voice in her head. 

So, to make it maybe/hopefully just a bit clear: The cursive parts are the parts in which the voice talks to the person. The person then talks to the voice in her head, in segments. I tried to write it like the person is talking to a 'good' friend, to reveal the 'real' addressee in the end. I am not so sure that it worked, but regardless, I'm glad the core concept is more or less visible. I'm sure that Endeavor elaborated on the Solomon reference in a great way. Just to give an example from that particular segment, the 'punishment made' bit refers to when the condition first started to appear - as a child. The 'sovereign mate' refers to the dominance of the voice over the person. The next cursive part is, again, the voice talking. By saying 'I never skewed truths', the voice says that it's never lied to the person. I intended it to do this way: the more you read the parts in cursive, the more it should become clear (for lack of better word here) that it's the opposite of every line stated in the cursive part. 'I never knew you' for example is obviously wrong in the sense that the voice knows the person. As you wouldn't expect such statements from a 'friend'. So, in order to be clearer, it's 'I always knew you' etc. Going back to the segment that the voice lied to the person (I feel like this is weirdly phrased but I try to be as clear as possible here, hopefully it works): the person says that the voice helped the person to greater heights. Heights that are chimerical, which means that it's not real. But also heights like personal highs, such as a confidence boost, hence the 'inner misfit sinks in liquids'. The liquid appears in another segment of the verse as well. In that segment, it's the person's medication. The sedatives also appear in the end, revealing, or subtly hinting at the condition of the person. So yeah, to sum it up, it is just about a schizoaffective person. My bad that the details and most of the lines were again too difficult to understand. And don't mind the novel like response, hopefully it's a bit clearer when you look at it from an overall perspective. Thank you for reading.